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L. Ron Hubbard and J.G. Ballard do not got together. A "total sci-fi nut" like you ought to know that.
But it seems you don't.
Similarly, a reading diet of Stephen Hawking and Richard Dawkins seems a curious (to put it politely) inspiration to "spirituality" and a "religious path". Let alone to thetan-status.
Exhibit C (ohne Worte):